E-Book, Englisch, 208 Seiten
Reihe: Lexham Ministry Guides
Senkbeil Pastoral Leadership
1. Auflage 2021
ISBN: 978-1-68359-476-5
Verlag: Lexham Press
Format: EPUB
Kopierschutz: Adobe DRM (»Systemvoraussetzungen)
For the Care of Souls
E-Book, Englisch, 208 Seiten
Reihe: Lexham Ministry Guides
ISBN: 978-1-68359-476-5
Verlag: Lexham Press
Format: EPUB
Kopierschutz: Adobe DRM (»Systemvoraussetzungen)
Harold L. Senkbeil is executive director emeritus of DOXOLOGY: The Lutheran Center for Spiritual Care. His pastoral experience of nearly five decades includes parish ministry, the seminary classroom, and parachurch leadership. He is author of numerous books, including award-winning The Care of Souls,Christ and Calamity, and Dying to Live. Lucas V. Woodford is the district president of the Minnesota South District of the Lutheran Church-Missouri Synod. He previously served as pastor for fifteen years. He is Fellow of DOXOLOGY: The Lutheran Center for Spiritual Care and author of Great Commission, Great Confusion, or Great Confession?: The Mission of the Holy Christian Church.
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Learning Leadership from Experience
Lucas V. Woodford
In 2003, I began my ministry at age 27 as an assistant pastor in a very large congregation. We had 3,300 members and a Lutheran parochial grade school (pre-K–8) of nearly 300 students attached. Between congregation and school, we had about fifty employees and a $2.4 million annual budget. With ministry operations on this scale, leadership is essential. I was part of a solid leadership organization, being one of three full-time pastors with numerous other part-time pastors on staff, as well as around forty teachers and numerous other office and support staff. Though I was only there for two and a half years, I watched as the congregation went through a governance model change and implemented various ministry efforts in a large setting.
I saw upfront the importance of leadership. In fact, our congregation was part of a leadership institute that served as a host site to assist pastors in becoming better pastoral leaders through hands-on experience at our church. At a relatively young age in ministry, I led groups of pastors through my area of ministry responsibility (discipleship, Christian education, and small groups) and explored with them the intricacies of pastoral leadership and teamwork in our large congregation.
So when I received the call to be senior pastor to Zion Lutheran Church only a short time later, I felt I had the skill set, the ambition, and the readiness to jump into that role at a smaller though still good-sized congregation and school (900 members and 150 students). Being confident in my leadership skills and excited for the new ministry and growing area I was moving to, I set out with great anticipation and confidence. However, I quickly found out the Lord has a way of humbling those who think too much of themselves.
My overconfidence and eager anticipation was met with a congregation and school beset by all kinds of internal strife, organizational disorder, ministry conflict, and personnel troubles. Though I was blessed to serve the saints of Zion for over a decade, the first five years were extremely difficult due to a host of issues, one of which was how I had bought into the lie that the church’s success was entirely dependent upon my own leadership. As you will see, I certainly affirm the importance of leadership. But making the success of a church (whatever that may be) hinge upon that one sole factor is dubious business.
THE TANTALIZING CHALLENGE
When I arrived, the congregation was convinced they needed to build a new, state-of-the-art church facility and school. In fact, they purchased twenty acres of land to do so just one month after my arrival. The congregation itself was situated in what had become a small but fast-growing bedroom community for the Twin Cities (of Minnesota), in the little town of Mayer. Formerly a farming community, new houses were exploding in three new developments. The congregation was growing and had a wonderful intergenerational mix of farmers and country folk combined with commuters and suburbanites of varying metropolitan mentalities.
But as I quickly found out, the congregation was not united about which property to buy (they had three possibilities), nor were they agreed on how to pay for this new building project (they had cash on hand for the land, but nothing after that), or even if that building project should be the emphasis of the congregation’s ministry. Adding to this unrest was the well-meaning but misguided efforts of some factions in the congregation to champion one or the other of the various ministries within the congregation by rallying troops to their cause, but which created significant divisions. Combined with this were some long-standing personnel conflicts, as well as a significant budget shortfall and mounting debt. So, you can imagine the disharmony and angst it created for me as their new, young, and inexperienced pastor.
I was quickly sucked into the unhealthy spiral of interaction and dysfunction, which ultimately led to compassion fatigue and burnout that I unhealthily tried to bury deep down in my gut and hide lest I be seen as a failure. Pride is a wicked vice the devil will try to use in order to bring down many a pastor. That is why personal prayer and meditation, confession and absolution with a father confessor, and the regular exercising of your faith (apart from sermon prep or Bible study prep) are essential to combat and treat such attacks of the devil.
PAYING THE PRICE?
I did my best to put on the appearance of a brave leader. I kept reading all the latest leadership books and was a master at putting on my poker face and acting like everything was great, even though I was being torn up inside. In fact, I kept trying to do more, work harder, and be the leader I thought they wanted and needed, only to find I was creating as many fires as I was trying to put out and alienating my family along the way.
Paranoia and uncertainty about the future of my ministry and the future of the congregation became my nightly obsession. Under the misbelief that if I worked more, tried harder, and was a better leader people would like me more, I began coming into the office at 3:00 a.m. to start my day and staying until late at night, after I had attended the last meeting of the day. Even so, landing on a common and uniting leadership emphasis for the congregation was ever elusive. Strife continued. Factions remained. Sadly, after one congregational meeting a former older staff member walked out of the meeting in anger and intentionally shouldered me, nearly knocking me down the stairs to our exit doors. He justified his action by saying I was full of “piss and vinegar.” Unfortunately, no one saw the interaction at the moment of physical contact. I viewed tattling on this individual as unhelpful and so buried it among all the other toxic and volatile unrest I thought a leader was simply supposed to willingly bear and smile about.
I was trying to do absolutely everything by my own reason and strength. I knew the Great Commission, I embraced it, and I was trying to fulfill it, even if it killed me! But the growth wasn’t magically happening like all the church growth books said it was supposed to. Those same books said a leader looking to bring change and vibrancy to his ministry should expect all kinds of resistance and animosity and needs to be prepared to endure some misery in ministry and life. They said this was just the price you pay if you want to lead a change toward a passionate, vibrant, missionoriented church.
I bought into the misbelief that all the misery I was experiencing was simply what ministry was supposed to be like and was the price of being a leader. Those were some very dark times. In fact, the only friend I thought I had was the hot shower I took in the morning. The devil and our own sinful flesh love to isolate us and attack us with all kinds of false beliefs, despair, and other great shame and vices.
But this is why what I offer here is my warning to recognize the important but limited role of leadership in ministry. Yes, pastors certainly need to be leaders and know how to think strategically and organizationally and how to balance staff personalities and directives as well as oversee and ensure things are getting done. Or, if that is not your strength, find someone who can do those things for the congregation. But to make leadership the hallmark of ministry is to subject Christ and his word to your leadership, which is not the nature of the church. Therefore, a word of caution is warranted.
A WORD OF CAUTION
During my early years at Zion, the congregation retained the services of a professional leadership guru and organizational manager in order to try and help steer the congregation in the right direction. The individual also happened to be affiliated with the same pastoral leadership organization that I assisted with at my first and much larger congregation. I worked with this person closely during this time, while also becoming engaged in a year-long contract with another ministry coach to assist myself and the congregation’s newly-hired-fresh-from-seminary associate pastor. I was bound and determined I was going to turn things around.
The leadership guru worked with our congregation for about a year, developing a strategic plan and work plan, which were unfortunately crafted in concepts foreign to the congregational leaders and therefore would end up ineffective. In time, after experiencing all the dysfunction and disorder happening internally firsthand, this leadership consultant decided to withdraw from the project, indicating the situation and unrest was just too intense and that leading the congregation through this was more difficult than first anticipated.
At that point I remember thinking to myself, “Seriously, you’ve got to be kidding me! I thought leaders were never supposed to back down. And you’re the leadership expert? If you’re the professional and you want out, where does that leave me? Sure, you get to go and hide from this mess, but I’m still here and still called to serve and love these people.” Very quickly I began to think, “Maybe leadership at all costs was not what it was cracked up to be, nor as effective some claimed it to be.”
Three years into this ministry setting, I was exhausted, terrified, and burned out. Yet, I never let a soul know just how lonely and hurt I was, nor the anguish that was eating me up on the inside. In fact, my anxiety...




