Markham Bad Ideas\Chemicals

1. Auflage 2017
ISBN: 978-1-912109-89-0
Verlag: Parthian Books
Format: EPUB
Kopierschutz: 6 - ePub Watermark

E-Book, Englisch, 120 Seiten

Cassandra Fish believes she is out of this world, wearing her orange film-set spacesuit daily in the hope that her absent parents will return and take her back to her real planet. While she waits she accompanies her friends - frustrated musician Billy, the only open mic player in the town and the laddish, volatile Fox - from bar to nightclub - on one last great night out to drink, dance, take bad chemicals, have bad trips, have bad ideas, and do unthinkable things.

Lloyd Markham was born in Johannesburg, South Africa, moving to and settling in Bridgend, south Wales when he was thirteen. He spent the rest of his teenage years miserable and strange and having bad nights out before undertaking a BA in Writing at Glamorgan followed by an MPhil. He enjoys noise music, Japanese animation and the documentaries of Adam Curtis. His favourite book is The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka. He operates synthesisers in a band called Deep Hum and has less bad nights out these days.

Autoren/Hrsg.

Markham, Lloyd

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BAD IDEAS\CHEMICALS LLOYD MARKHAM PARTHIAN Parthian The Old Surgery Napier Street Cardigan SA43 1ED www.parthianbooks.co.uk © Lloyd Markham 2017 All Rights Reserved ISBN 978-1-912109-68-5 Cover design by Torben Schacht Typeset by Syncopated Pandemonium The publisher acknowledges the financial support of the Welsh Books Council. British Library Cataloguing in Publication Data A cataloguing record for this book is available from the British Library. This book is sold subject to the condition that it shall not by way of trade or otherwise be circulated without the publisher’s prior consent in any form of binding or cover other than that in which it is published. ‘We are healthy only to the extent that our ideas are humane.’ Kurt Vonnegut SPACE CRUISER ARMS\ORANGE SPACESUIT SCABS Through the visor of her space helmet Cassandra Fish sees the mouldy, off-white ceiling of her bathroom. Her parents haven’t come to pick her up. As she lifts herself out of the tub, tepid bathwater sloshes on to the lime green tiles below. Unfazed, she sits on the edge of the bath and takes off her spacesuit. It is orange and although it resembles a crap film prop it can withstand long journeys through the void. Her space boots are similarly well-equipped. Throwing her pants and bra into the laundry, Cassandra notices another blue bump like a small burrowing creature emerging from the sparse blonde grass on her thigh. This brings the total count of scratches, cuts, and bruises up to twenty-six – five more than the number of years she has been trapped on Earth. The bruises are unavoidable. The suit is not made for sleeping in. Neither is the bath. Or the boots. But these have to be endured if she is to get back home. She eases off her helmet, wincing as hairs gummed to the inside with blood peel from her scalp. Then she lurches to the sink. Cassandra’s cheeks have sunk deeper. Her hair, which is thin and brittle, is almost down to her eyebrows and will need to be shaved soon. The planet’s atmosphere is damaging her. She brushes her teeth. Then, taking a sponge and a bottle of special cleaning fluid, she sets about scrubbing the spacesuit with meticulous care. She has a feeling that tonight will be the night her parents finally come to pick her up. As she smooths the cleaning fluid between the fingers of her gloves, Cassandra envisions the cruiser hovering over Earth; its green lights blink, its warm engines glide towards her like gentle arms seeking to scoop, to lift, to carry— But first a night out with her human friends. A BAD START\CAREERS, LIFESTYLES & ATTITUDES I am struggling to choose between three long-term career goals – killing myself, killing my dad, or killing the both of us... Louie Jones, lying on his bed, eyes on his laptop, holds down the backspace key to obliterate the truth. Part of him wants to leave it in, if just to see his Careers, Lifestyles & Attitudes coordinator’s face when she reads it. But this would only cause trouble. He mustn’t cause trouble. You have to tell them what they want to hear. This is the purpose of these exercises. Envision, Articulate & Realise Training. That’s what they call them. Because ‘Busywork & Bullying’ would make them feel bad. Louie grimaces. Somehow a part of him still doesn’t want his coordinator to feel bad. She’s only doing her job after all. He lets out a long, deep breath and starts over on his Actualisation Confessional. I am struggling to make compromises between my long-term ambitions and my short-term needs. I have to work on my poor attitude. I have to understand that my poor attitude is why I have failed to find adequate employment... Better. Though he will probably need to swap out ‘ambition’ with ‘aspiration’. Ambition is something for people with means and contacts and appreciating assets. Aspiration is more appropriate, ‘realistic’ his CLA Coordinator would say, for a young man of his class. Though she wouldn’t say ‘class’ – that was too charged. She would say ‘background’. For someone of his ‘background’ having ambitions was unrealistic – a bad idea. ‘Ambition’ suggests something forceful. Better he lays claim to aspiration – a word which rolls off the tongue in a weary gasp. I am struggling to make compromises between breathing and... Louie holds backspace again, destroys the black text, and rolls over onto his side – away from the laptop screen. It is eight in the morning. Soon he will have to climb downstairs and open up his father’s failing shop. Louie works in this crap-hole ten hours a day but still has to claim income and underemployment support because his dad hasn’t come downstairs in over a month and the angry letters from the bank are stacking up and the stock is beginning to spoil and Social Services folded their arms and will not do anything about anything about anything— Louie feels like someone has stabbed fingers into his temples and is rooting around in his skull, scraping behind his eyes and nose. He stands up and opens the curtains. Rain. Perfect, he thinks. Let it rain. May it never cease. Tip the entire ocean upon us and let the whole of Goregree sink into the sea like the stubborn, soggy log of shit that it is. His phone buzzes. Text from the CLA: Placement Notification. Mercy Clinic. 21:00. He doesn’t reply. Isn’t necessary. Attendance is mandatory but the CLA will be thrilled if he misses the text and doesn’t pitch. They can hit him with a sanction then and he will be off their books for a year at least. Louie is only nineteen years old but he feels like a cold, sweaty corpse. His brown hair sticks to his forehead and a blue glimmer bruise throbs as it heals in the gutter of his left eye – the result of another futile one-sided shouting match with his mad father three weeks prior. Louie remembers going to Social Services after that incident. The taste of blood in his mouth. His heart full of grim hope that surely this time they would do something. How that hope so quickly crumbled as they found yet more technicalities that prevented intervention and passed him along to another sub department. He can’t recall which one. Department of Excuses perhaps? Either way, it was halfway through filling the fifth form – a purple one – that something deep within him gave up and he went home, his face numb but thankfully no longer bleeding. The last three years, since his mother had enough and left, have aged Louie a thousand fold. He feels like someone else’s cursed painting – as if, in the night, some Dorian-esque twat had slipped into his room and stolen his youth away. There is a clanking, groaning sound. Christ, Louie thinks. Roaches in the vents again? It is a bad start to the day. SPACESUIT CIDER VISOR\TAXI BONNET MIRACLE Cassandra is on her way to meet her friends in town when a nearly-empty can rebounds off her forehead, splashing tepid cider down the visor of her space helmet. Through the dribble she sees a teenage human leaning by the wall of the Jones’ shop, yelling something inaudible to her. She reaches into her pocket and pauses her MP3 player. ‘Hey!’ says the boy. ‘What the fuck you wearing that for?’ Cassandra initially wonders what he is referring to but then she remembers the spacesuit. The boy, being from Earth, has likely never seen one. She picks up the can in her gloved hands, crosses the street, and places it in a bin by the shop door. The boy eyes her up and down, fidgets with his ear piercing. ‘Aw, sorry, thought you were a bloke. Bit hard to tell with that stupid getup.’ He produces a cigarette from the front pocket of his red polo shirt. ‘Got a light?’ Cassandra shakes her head. ‘No, sorry. I don’t smoke.’ ‘Come on now, don’t be a bitch. Give us a light.’ ‘No, really, I don’t have one.’ ‘Aw, be difficult then.’ The boy scowls, puts the cigarette back in his pocket and storms off, disappearing into the Goregree lower housing estate. The Jones’ shop is the only general store for miles in this part of the town. Once part of a cluster of five small businesses, all four of its neighbours have since been boarded up. It now stands alone – a mass of near-identical terraced houses at its back, an impenetrable green-grey forest at its front. Cassandra checks her mobile: 18.00. Six hours until the window of lunar transfer opens. She puts her phone away and steps through the shop door to where Louie Jones is standing behind the till nursing a head full of bad ideas. ‘Er, hello, Cass,’ he says, looking down at his feet. ‘Hi Louie!’ She points to her damp visor. ‘Could I use the bathroom—?’ An unintelligible bellow sounds from the second floor. Louie winces and turns his gaze to the gloomy stairs by the entrance of the shop. Cassandra hasn’t seen Mr Jones, Louie’s father, in over a month, but evidence of his continued existence is all around the store in the faded smell of GOTE and other bad chemicals. On the wall, above the cigarettes and painkillers, a rifle is mounted on a display. In a previous life, in another country, Mr Jones had been an avid hunter. He often used to joke that the rifle was still loaded. Just in case. In...